I realize I have a serious emotional eating problem. Saxenda is suppressing my appetite, but I keep eating anyway. This is in my head; I need more support.
I need to manage better so I’ve headed back to Weight Watchers. I’m not going to wait until Monday to get head on straight. The weekly weigh-ins, group meetings and online Connect program really provided a good social support and accountability network.
The good news is that I lost 4.9 lbs this week (week 2). I’m hesitant to get excited. Well see on Thursday.
Two weigh-ins is a coincidence; three will make a streak.
Increased my dose to 1.2 a day early. Down 8.1 but I had my friend last week and a big binge before I started so I’m back to around normal. The good news is that I don’t feel nauseous at all. I felt more emotionally hungry than anything else today so I have to learn how to combat that feeling.
Took it this morning and felt fine! (Knock on wood.). No real hunger during the day. Didn’t have too bad of an urge to snack. Haven’t had dinner. Feeling good about this.
Also received my Saxenda care package in the mail. Nice plate and cool resources.
- Switching it up and took it tonight instead of this morning. Yesterday’s exhaustion was tolerable only because I had the day off.
- First two days I ate little, compared to normal. It felt like a lot, but it wasn’t (two meals and fruit). I’m usually a huge snacker.
Update: 7/31 – 8:32pm
I can definitely tell a difference, when I take it at night. The snacking urge was present all day because I didn’t feel full. Luckily, I only ate a lot of sugar free Popsicles (15 cals each) so I didn’t do much damage. I’ll start taking it again in the morning tomorrow.
- Work – no words.
- Realized I sent my half-naked before photos to a complete stranger. I created a new email address for photos, but left out a word and so it wasn’t actually my new account. Unfortunately I also sent it from my real email address with my first and last name.
- I’m a little nauseous, but I still want to eat. So I’m fighting that.
Today is just a really shitty, no good horrible day.
#1. I hate my job.
This is number 1. I absolutely hate it. I’ve hated it from the first day I started. They presented themselves as something they were not. I could have advanced my career, but I went here thinking they’re something they weren’t. I hate a lot of the people I work with. They’re liars and cheats. They’re the worst of local government. Fucking assholes.
I’ve gained 30 lbs since I started. Two years. I never leave my house. I stay home all of the time because I’m ashamed of how I look.
I have to lose weight so I can confidently go on job interviews and, if hired, not have my salary penalized for being overweight.
I want to lose at least 50 lbs. That would get me down to 150. That seems so far away. I’d still be 25-30 away from goal, but I could at least feel more confident. I have to keep my goal front and center so I don’t forget.