Day 16: “Don’t wait on Mondays.”

I realize I have a serious emotional eating problem. Saxenda is suppressing my appetite, but I keep eating anyway. This is in my head; I need more support. 

I need to manage better so I’ve headed back to Weight Watchers. I’m not going to wait until Monday to get head on straight. The weekly weigh-ins, group meetings and online Connect program really provided a good social support and accountability network. 

The good news is that I lost 4.9 lbs this week (week 2).  I’m hesitant to get excited. Well see on Thursday.

 Two weigh-ins is a coincidence; three will make a streak. 

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Day 3

  • Switching it up and took it tonight instead of this morning. Yesterday’s exhaustion was tolerable only because I had the day off.
  • First two days I ate little, compared to normal. It felt like a lot, but it wasn’t (two meals and fruit). I’m usually a huge snacker.

Update: 7/31 – 8:32pm

I can definitely tell a difference, when I take it at night.  The snacking urge was present all day because I didn’t feel full.  Luckily, I only ate a lot of sugar free Popsicles (15 cals each) so I didn’t do much damage. I’ll start taking it again in the morning tomorrow.

 

Day 1

  • Nausea hits pretty quickly. 
  • Starting this when your “friend” is also scheduled to start is a bad idea because you can’t tell what is making you feel bad. (But if you’re desperate, then you have to do what’s necessary.)
  • Sugary snacks help with the sick feeling (e.g. a few grapes, strawberries). I’m also going to try PeptoBismol in addition to the Tums. 
  • Letting the medicine get to room temp definitely helps minimize the sting at the injection site. (Learned this day 2.)

Going back to bed

  1. Work – no words.
  2. Realized I sent my half-naked before photos to a complete stranger. I created a new email address for photos, but left out a word and so it wasn’t actually my new account. Unfortunately I also sent it from my real email address with my first and last name.
  3. I’m a little nauseous, but I still want to eat. So I’m fighting that.

Today is just a really shitty, no good horrible day.

Reasons for staying focused.

#1. I hate my job.

This is number 1. I absolutely hate it. I’ve hated it from the first day I started. They presented themselves as something they were not. I could have advanced my career, but I went here thinking they’re something they weren’t.  I hate a lot of the people I work with. They’re liars and cheats. They’re the worst of local government. Fucking assholes.

I’ve gained 30 lbs since I started. Two years. I never leave my house. I stay home all of the time because I’m ashamed of how I look.

I have to lose weight so I can confidently go on job interviews and, if hired, not have my salary penalized for being overweight.

I want to lose at least 50 lbs. That would get me down to 150. That seems so far away. I’d still be 25-30 away from goal, but I could at least feel more confident. I have to keep my goal front and center so I don’t forget.